horrible bdsm au | still no actual bdsm

[settering]

[A few days after confessing to Oikawa finds Tobio outside the gym after practice drinking a post-practice carton of milk and wondering if everyone's first love goes like this.

He leans against the wall of the locker room and stares at the lights, standing out now that the sun has set, that are still on in the gym. He knows Oikawa is still in there, still practicing, and considers going in to join him as he sucks on his straw.

The last time he was alone in the gym with Oikawa didn't exactly go as expected.

He absentmindedly scratches at his neck, the bruises Oikawa sucked into his skin having almost faded away but he can still feel them searing hot on his skin. That part had been nice, kissing in general was nice and something he could definitely get used to. Touching his senpai was even more exciting then it had been in his fantasies. Getting punched in the gut was... not something he ever saw coming.

He's heard people say that love hurts before but something tells him they don't mean it that way.

Oikawa didn't accept his feelings, which he did expect, but he also didn't outright reject him and now he's left wondering where they stand. He could try talking to Oikawa again but ever since the incident Oikawa seems to avoid being alone with him, and it's not like he can bring up how Oikawa feels about making out with him in front of the whole team.

His mother had told him countless times that he can always come to her with any problem he has, but he thinks she might mean problems with his schoolwork or his peers instead of the feelings he has for his senpai who may or may not hate him.

And despite being in the same class for a few months now he hasn't managed to make any friends among his classmates, so no chance to ask for love advice there either.

Which leaves him all alone, trying to work out just what exactly his feelings are and how to deal with them.

Unless...

Even across the quickly darkening school grounds he can make out the silhouette of the other person staring at the doors to the gym.

Iwaizumi usually sticks around after practice. From overhearing their conversations in the locker room Tobio knows they often walk home together and that Iwaizumi worries about Oikawa overworking himself.

Iwaizumi is a reliable upperclassman, he did help Tobio out that one time and is always nice to him. He also knows Oikawa best of anyone on the team and might be the only person able to help Tobio figure out how to solve his problems.

Tobio squishes the now empty milk carton in his hand and drops it in the trashbin as he quickly walks over to where Iwaizumi is standing.]

Iwaizumi-senpai!

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I told him I liked him and he kissed me and then punched me and I don't know what that means.

[Well he did decide he needed Iwaizumi's help. Being upfront about these things is best, right?]

[acespiker]

[WELL, THIS IS A LOT TO TAKE IN ALL AT ONCE.]

So, you're going to ask him? [Why is Iwaizumi friends with people like this?]

[settering]

[Yeah... it took Tobio a while to process it too.]

I don't know. You know him better than I do.

[acespiker]

[Iwaizumi grunts. The grunt means that yes, he does know Oikawa better, but also that Oikawa is a pain in the ass the likes of which no one will ever truly understand without driving themselves insane.]

Still like him after he punched him?

[settering]

Yes.

[If he was the type to be discouraged by negativity he would have given up a loooooong time ago.]

[acespiker]

[Iwaizumi should have figured.]

You've got shitty taste, Kageyama.

[He sighs, grumbling. Why are they like this.]

Want me to talk to him about the punching? [Don't punch people, assikawa.]

[settering]

[Blink blink.]

Why?

[No he, sincerely does not understand why that means he has shitty taste, please explain senpai.]

I just wanted to know what you think.

[acespiker]

[Why is Kageyama in particular like this.]

I think I need to show an asshole how getting punched feels. [He's practically talking to himself about that, because he knows Kageyama won't get it.]

Look, Oikawa is... [How do you talk about someone like Oikawa?] Weird. It's possible he's interested. But I think you're an idiot for going there. [Don't call twelve year olds idiots, Iwaizumi.]

[settering]

[He chooses to ignore Iwaizumi talking to himself, maybe punching is just how his senpai show they care.]

Why? [Sounding like a broken record here, Tobio-chan.]

[acespiker]

[He's not wrong there.]

Oikawa isn't good with feelings. [He pauses.] Might be because the dick doesn't have any.

[settering]

[Because, clearly, Tobio is good with feelings.]

I think he has feelings.

[acespiker]

[Anyone is better than Oikawa. Anyone. Even Kageyama.

Iwaizumi barks a laugh.] Maybe. If sadism is a feeling.

[settering]

Then he should've just punched me! Instead of kissing back and letting me give him a handjob. [Did he forget to mention that part before? Whoops.]

[acespiker]

WHAT!?

[Someone should start drafting Oikawa's obituary.]

[settering]

[He fucked up. All Tobio wanted was some advice on his "love life"]

It was my fault. [He probably just pushed too much.]

[acespiker]

[RIP Iwaizumi's blood vessels. Every single one of them is exploding.]

How. Was it. Your fault? [Iwaizumi is very very sure that it was not, but. He will hear the other side of the story out. Before he starts making Oikawa's grave nice and comfortable for its new inhabitant.]

[settering]

I told him I liked him and he didn't believe me so I kissed him to prove it.

[Saying it out loud, that probably wasn't the best idea he ever had.]

[acespiker]

And then you... [He doesn't want to say anything that would describe what it was so he falls silent. Then clears his throat.]

Did he want you to... [He trails off again, but he feels like he probably does need to clarify, so with heat rising to his cheeks he makes a certain, vulgar motion with his hand.]

[settering]

[Yeaaaaahhhhh, the hand motion is definitely worse.]

I asked him if I could, that's when he punched me.

[acespiker]

[Look. Shut up. He's doing his best.]

So... he didn't want you to? [That's what he's guessing the punching meant in any case.]

[settering]

[If only Tobio knew Suga already, he could get advice from a useful senpai.]

No, he did. [At least Tobio thinks he did.]

[acespiker]

[Wait...]

Why do you think that?

[Gotta get back to basics. Which he's probably going to regret, but oh well.]

[settering]

Because he didn't punch me again.

[That means consent, right?]

[acespiker]

[The worst part is that with Oikawa it probably was.

Iwaizumi makes a choked sound.]

THAT'S NOT—

[How will he ever find the words. Fuck.

He takes a deep breath. Tries to lower his blood pressure.]

Make him tell you, if you think he wants you to do that — or anything else — again. [Bases, covered?]

[settering]

[That's a nice sentiment, senpai. Except...]

He never listens to anything I say.