horrible bdsm au | I'm going to hell

[settering]

[There are some things you can only learn by closely watching other people.

After the last time Tobio asked Oikawa to teach him how to do the jump serve he had resigned himself to watch Oikawa's every movement to try and pick up the move that way instead of aproaching him again. Even if he hadn't felt particularly thrown off by the threat of physical harm, Iwaizumi had told him it would be best to keep his distance. And listening to Iwaizumi could never do anyone any harm.

After practice, when the gym is empty and he's the only one left, he recalls Oikawa's legs and the way his muscles moved. Recalls the arch of his body as he jumps. Recalls the way his hand moves to the perfect spot to spike the ball across the net and back onto the court before his opponent even realizes what happened.

He works until his own jump serve is a crude aproximation and then goes on to finetune it for hours every single day, and for a while it works.

But one night he can't sleep, alone in the dark or his bedroom, and recalls Oikawa's legs and imagines how they would look wrapped around him. Recalls the arch of his body and wonders what it would feel like pressed alongside his own. Recalls the way his hand moves and shivers at the thought of it sliding over his body and replacing his own hand on his dick.

He gets into the habit of masturbating to thoughts and memories of his captain to wind down at the end of the day, and for a while it works.

More and more often he finds observation and imagination overlapping, sitting on the sidelines as Oikawa practices his jump serves Tobio has to draw his knees up to hide his hard-on from the rest of the team while he bites his lip to focus himself back on the game. Once or twice he even has to excuse himself from practice to fix his problem in the bathroom because he can't make it go away through sheer willpower. And that's when it becomes a problem.

He could deal with it if it didn't interfere with volleyball but it does and refuses to miss practice over something so stupid. A sensible person would find a solution on their own, or else talk to someone who can be trusted.

No one has ever accused Tobio of being sensible.

The only way he knows how to solve a problem is with blunt force and head on. Which brings him to approach Oikawa after practice.

Oikawa-san...

[If he can figure out how to phrase his problem that is.]

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[Tobio is not going down without a fight. He brings up his hands to hold Oikawa's face and move him this way and that way to make kissing him easier.]

[tooruler]

[Oikawa wouldn't have it any other way, even if his cheeks are getting squished. Even breathing heavily through his nose he's loath to stop to get more air, preferring to grip Kageyama's wrist and pull it away from his face so at least he can tilt his head properly.]

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[Oikawa's grip hurts, but Tobio still moans into his open mouth at the contact. Something tells him that this isn't how his first love was supposed to go, that usually things are nicer. Softer. But he fell in love with Oikawa instead, and he'll take anything that comes with that.]

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[Just don't tell him that, he can't have Kageyama in love with him, that would be too much. He can barely handle that he likes him.

Kageyama's moan makes Oikawa's heart skip a beat because it's too close and too real and the first time that anyone has done that to him - because of him. He almost feels like crying, but he swallows it down and cards his fingers through Kageyama's hair gripping the back of it and holding him steady as their lips move together.]

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[He'll save that for later. Even Tobio realizes that would probably make Oikawa stop right now, and that's about the opposite of what he wants.

His moan turns rough with Oikawa pullins his hair like that and he moves with him, leaving his neck exposed to Oikawa.]

[tooruler]

[Well, that is certainly tempting, and he goes for it, ignoring the niggling thought that this is a trap. There is no way a neck is a trap. How could that possibly be a trap. He pauses on his way to sucking Kageyama's neck to kiss the turn of Kageyama's jaw and the spot under his ear, and then starts working on giving Kageyama a hickey. He's being rough and careless, but that's fine. He doesn't want to be careful with Kageyama.]

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[Oh, that's... that actually feels really nice. He didn't know what he was expecting but it wasn't this. He lets out another shameless moan at Oikawa marking up his throat. He can worry about having to cover up his hickeys tomorrow.]

[tooruler]

[How does Kageyama make such sounds? Why doesn't he get embarrassed and pull away, tell Oikawa to stop. Give Oikawa some excuse to stop, because this is weird - of course it's weird, he's marking Kageyama, after Kageyama confessed to him, and somehow it would be both more weird and less weird if it was someone other than Kageyama, it's not like Kageyama every stops getting involved in his business. So... Maybe he should take advantage of the opportunity.]

Tobio-chan shouldn't just stand there. You know kouhai supposed to look out for your senpais' needs, don't you?

[And he moves Kageyama's hand onto the tented crotch of his shorts, hoping that he doesn't have to spell it out for him, before returning to Kageyama's neck.]

[settering]

[He doesn't get embarrassed because his brain kind of short-circuited when Oikawa started kissing his neck. It hadn't come up once when he was fantasizing about Oikawa returning his feelings(?) but he'll have to remember to put it in the next time he's alone.

Right now there is a more, uhm, pressing matter at hand.

He moves his hand experimentally, trying to rub it against Oikawa in a way that might feel good. The angle is different from when he does this to himself but his usual moves should still work.]

[tooruler]

[Just so long as he treats him with... respect, this should work fine. His initial movements aren't bad, not quite what Oikawa wants, not really, but he'd be hard pressed to explain what exactly he does want, so Kageyama gets points for doing okay.

He's getting harder by the second under Kageyama's motions, which is only natural. This is his first time doing anything like this, that means it's understandable when his breath hitches and he bites down on the curve of Kageyama's shoulder to keep himself from doing anything like make noises.]

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[Tobio kind of wishes he had something to help keep him from making noises, because he moans embarassingly loud when Oikawa bites down hard. The grip he has on Oikawa's dick tightening in reflex.]

[tooruler]

[Ow?? That's-

Well, it does feel a little good, but ow?

Oikawa slips his hand between them to ease Kageyama's grip, he's hot and hard and has a coiling in his stomach telling him this is probably a bad idea.]

Be gentle, Tobio-chan.

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[Is Oikawa really one to talk about being gentle when Tobio will have to figure out a way to cover up his entire neck tomorrow? But talking back has not been working out of him so far, and he would much rather continue this than being punched in the gut again.

So he let's Oikawa loosen his grip a little and uses the opportunity to slide his hand up to Oikawa's stomach and then down again into his shorts.]

[tooruler]

[That's different, he doesn't care if Kageyama gets hurt. But he has switched back to more gentle motions himself, he might even press something like a kiss to Kageyama's skin.

He shivers under Kageyama's touch, and nudges his hips into Kageyama's hand as his hand goes into his shorts.]

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[Who knew that a gentle touch could sting like that? He almost wants to ask Oikawa to go back to biting him instead.

Oikawa's dick burns hot against his palm and the slide of his fingers is a little rougher than is probably comfortable but what is he going to do about that? Besides, Oikawa doesn't seem to be complaining.]

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[He absolutely is not, it feels good, and helps him remember that this isn't his own hand, that this is Kageyama's which shouldn't turn him on more than his own touch but it does.

And he's getting close already. He'd be embarrassed if he wasn't so worked up, if he didn't have a coiling below his stomach that's tighter than he ever had before. He grazes his teeth over Kageyama's skin again, to have something to do while Kageyama continues his motions, he feels like he should have something to say, but his brain isn't supplying him anything.]

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[It's exciting for him as well, he has jerked off to thoughts of this so often and even though there is no hand down his own pants he thinks he might be able to get off on this.

Oikawa is quiet, and it's hard for Tobio to gauge how close he is. But until Oikawa lets him know he'll just keep going like this, varying his speed a little so his hand doesn't cramp up.]

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[He comes, without giving warning and without much of a reaction apart from a sound deep and animal enough that he wouldn't know he made it if it didn't come from his own mouth. His cum covers Kageyama's fingers and his hips jerk up into his grip, before he can pull himself back into line. It felt good which shouldn't feel like as much of a surprise as it is. He sags against Kageyama, and he has a feeling like tears welling up from his throat but he swallows it down.]

I suppose I should tell you well done.

[Anyone else would know that he isn't really giving a compliment, but he never knows what Kageyama will pick up on.]

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[It's hard to resist the urge to rut against Oikawa's leg now that he's pressed up against him, but Tobio would like to not chase his senpai off so they can do this again some time.]

Thank you.

[Is it for the "compliment" or for letting Tobio jerk him off? Who knows?

But Tobio withdraws his hand from Oikawa's shorts and brings it closer to his face to look at the way Oikawa's cum is coating his fingers. It doesn't look too different from his own, so he opens his mouth and carefully licks some of it up.]

[tooruler]

[Not even the recipient of the thanks knows what it's for. So he's ignoring it.

He's ignoring it in favour of looking horrified. That's his cum Kageyama's eating. His nose wrinkles and he opens and closes his mouth a few times before he can summon any words to speak.]

Don't do that!

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Why not?

[He asks, tongue still poking out a little. It doesn't taste quite as bad as he thought it would.]

[tooruler]

[He resists the urge to poke Kageyama's tongue back in with his finger. Or his own tongue.]

Because it's gross.

[settering]

It's not so bad.

[It's no curry but then, that would be weird. But if Oikawa dislikes it that much Tobio will just wipe his fingers on his (still tented) shorts.]

[tooruler]

[The wipe draws Oikawa's attention back to the tent and makes his lip curl. How gross.]

You have bad taste, Tobio-chan.

[settering]

[Tobio shrugs. What is he supposed to say to that? Oikawa won't believe him when he says he likes him, and this is just an extension of that.

He fidgets with his, now clean, hands. Oikawa wouldn't send him away and tell him to never do that again while Tobio was still getting him off. But now that he's done, all he can do is wait for a reaction.]